there is a thing called bisexual/pansexual you know…..
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every time I look at her My stomach gets these fluttery, “I think I’m gonna barf” feelings.
And as much as I want them to go away, I kind of don’t
Amy from Faking it (via sanity-and-happiness)
justbpdthings :)
-not being able to get out of bed
-impulsively cutting off relationships
-trashing your room/house during breakdowns
-splitting and ruining your relationships as a result
-constantly being manipulative without intending to
-thinking youre faking your disorder despite it ruining your life
-violent mood swings
-going from 0 motivation to “i must do everything now” bc black and white thinking is so fun
-¯\_(ツ)_/¯
- me, 10 minutes ago: wow....my head is so clear!! this is great, maybe today won't be a loss!! maybe i really was faking, maybe I'm better!!!!
- me now, dissociating wildly: what................ is up
I hate it
I hate having borderline.
I hate feeling crazy everyday.
I hate feeling like the world hates me when they don’t respond.
–Or do respond but not in the way I imagined.
I hate being impulsive.
I hate my random outbursts.
I hate being overly optimistic, while my head is overly pessimistic.
I hate feeling overly needy.
I hate feeling like I must be faking it for attention.
I hate that I always feel like death would be far greater than this life.
I hate that I don’t remember what started a fight 5 minutes in.
I hate that I turn the whole world upside down when something that is irrelevant happens, or doesn’t happen.
I hate that I’m all black and white.
– I hate that I’ll go from one end to the other in 0.2 seconds.
I hate that I dissociate so easily.
I hate that when it comes to fight, flight, or freeze I mostly freeze.
I hate that pretending there isn’t a problem is easier than acknowledging I’m a problem.
I hate that I need people to like me.
I hate that I get jealous when my friends have other friends.
I hate that idealize people no matter if they’re good or bad.
– I hate that I’ll make excuses for the bad.
I hate that I’d rather have a toxic relationship than no relationship at all.
–I hate that I’ll beat that same dead horse til I’m just playing in mud.
I hate that I love so easily.
I hate that I judge myself when people have different symptoms.
I hate that I don’t know who I am.
I hate when I finally split.
I hate that I don’t have control of my emotions.
I hate that I am never happy with myself.
I hate borderline, and I hate me.
I hate it
I hate having borderline.
I hate feeling crazy everyday.
I hate feeling like the world hates me when they don’t respond.
–Or do respond but not in the way I imagined.
I hate being impulsive.
I hate my random outbursts.
I hate being overly optimistic, while my head is overly pessimistic.
I hate feeling overly needy.
I hate feeling like I must be faking it for attention.
I hate that I always feel like death would be far greater than this life.
I hate that I don’t remember what started a fight 5 minutes in.
I hate that I turn the whole world upside down when something that is irrelevant happens, or doesn’t happen.
I hate that I’m all black and white.
– I hate that I’ll go from one end to the other in 0.2 seconds.
I hate that I dissociate so easily.
I hate that when it comes to fight, flight, or freeze I mostly freeze.
I hate that pretending there isn’t a problem is easier than acknowledging I’m a problem.
I hate that I need people to like me.
I hate that I get jealous when my friends have other friends.
I hate that idealize people no matter if they’re good or bad.
– I hate that I’ll make excuses for the bad.
I hate that I’d rather have a toxic relationship than no relationship at all.
–I hate that I’ll beat that same dead horse til I’m just playing in mud.
I hate that I love so easily.
I hate that I judge myself when people have different symptoms.
I hate that I don’t know who I am.
I hate when I finally split.
I hate that I don’t have control of my emotions.
I hate that I am never happy with myself.
I hate borderline, and I hate me.
Living with bpd/hpd be like
*wakes up*
should I really get up?
yeah, if not I won’t get attention
Can’t even remember the last time I took a
shower, should take one rn
wait how the hell did I get in the garden???
ATTENTION PLSSS
Do my friends really like me or nah?
Guess I’m faking that I’m mentally ill
I feel great af today
Nevermind
Where’s my attention???
At least I didn’t split today
*splits*
More attention please
Living with bpd/hpd be like
*wakes up*
should I really get up?
yeah, if not I won’t get attention
Can’t even remember the last time I took a
shower, should take one rn
wait how the hell did I get in the garden???
ATTENTION PLSSS
Do my friends really like me or nah?
Guess I’m faking that I’m mentally ill
I feel great af today
Nevermind
Where’s my attention???
At least I didn’t split today
*splits*
More attention please
Don’t waste time on revenge. The people who hurt you will eventually face their own karma.